They Thought I was Pregnant

they thought I was pregnant,
well, I looked like it, oh, absolutely!
my stomach bulged unapologetically,
and I would struggle to hide it,
I didn’t know what was happening
to my body,
all I knew for sure I stuck with my diet,
I consumed the same food,
never a meat-eater except for fish,
is it hormones, metabolism issue?
no idea,
but to hold it in all day long at work
was a real pain,
trust me, the lie I had to muscle up
just to survive a day went above and beyond
my courage measures,
though I couldn’t spare myself from
speculations and mockery here and there,
how embarrassing and painful!

until I discovered I was sick,
my spirit was dying,
my sensitive emotions flew off the handle,
I buried the world’s suffering inside of me,
I stole away other people’s diseases and
planted them into my energetic field,
I participated in toxicity,
I engaged with cruel mouths and cruel minds,
I breathed in a room full of hate,
the gossip-mongers, the evil eyes–

once the culprits were realized,
I did all the work to heal myself,
I disappeared,
I stayed quiet,
I went back to solitude,
I reconnected with my angels,
I made sacred deals with God,
I redeemed my soul–

And you know what happened?
A rebirth.
A glowing rebirth.
Getting terribly sick was
meant to happen after all.
Now I am more powerful than ever before.

It’s funny how toxicity, when tolerated, warns
and tries to kill us all at once if we’re not
careful.